Maybe its my fault for letting ppl fck me up in the head.
Too much hope put on them God decided to break me instead. Maybe he wanna tell me dont put hope on...

Human. Just hope for Him. And Him. I wish i wasnt so fck up in the head. I wish i was like tht book character that i love so much. Shes bold, brave, strong, firm, shes everything i wanted to be. It will always be 1 step forward 3 steps bck. Kinda used to it. Surrendering to life.

I wish i was braver.
I wish i was firmer.
I wish i was bold.
I wish i have faith in humans,
I wish i was the kid i was back in the day before i found them,
I wish i was everything i wanted to be,
But a wish is a wish that will stay as a wish cause a wish will never come true.

Kinda want to make a miserable thread. Like this. Like my mind. Jumping from one to one. Sometimes i hate this head, it doesnt know how to shut up.
A mind is a messy place of all. Tired of fixing it again n again just get fxk up again.

Kinda tired putting this wall but human scared me. I guess i am way too protective of my little tiny pieces of heart. Maybe that is why i really love reassurance in everything i do. I put on hope on things tats logical. Like math. The ans is the same so i put on it. Kbat? Meh.

I wish i can follow my heart like how they said. I ve been a decision maker from i was a child. Guess i am a brainer not a feeler. Idk if tats even a word. Bleh. When i do used the stupid thing in the chest, it just shows how heartbreakingly disappointing human is.

I wish i wasnt tat naive. Too trusting. Too honest. Too much hope in them. Believing the fairytale thy told. But life is cruel it abandoned the age im in. Too young to be fck up. I wish the younger me sees the danger. Yet so young and naive. Too innocent so stupid.

God why am i so stupid? Being used letting them rule over me. Trusting them to care for me. Having faith they will nvr break me. The younger me feels, the older version of me thinks. Too protective of what inside.

Mann what a chaotic thread. From one thing connected to the other opening a memory i dont wanna remember. A mind is a messy place. A heart is a complicated thing.

Really really chaotic. W the horrible grammar ohmygod. Sleepy me is honest/stupid/vunerable me. Pshh aint letting ppl see this side of me. I'll prob ranting to them ab stupid stuffs like this thread. Pheww.