cn tw medications mental health

Today i spent some time discussing the different meds we take for mental health across the spectrum and what the reality of them are versus the hype or descriptions.
It was really illuminating.

I dont want to betray the sharing of others so i will only offer mine. After decades of disappointment and feeling like a test guinea pig for various concoctions, there is still a cross inner child who want a a pill to take the feelings away and another to feel alive again.

I was once told i had "treatment resistant complex anxiety and depression" which is a nonsense term that must have been fad lingo at some point.
I think i have "got a bit messed up and developed coping mechanisms that don't suit non-crisis situations at all"

I was surprised to find i was not alone in finding the best outcomes of meds to be "havent killed myself yet" but that is a wonderful base line for many. I am very pro medication if and when it works. I am pro taking what you need to survive and cope no matter the source.

Part of me would like to know how much is chemical inside of me and how much is environmental/socio-economic and how much i am just damaged goods.
But then the "MH professional" part of me argues that it makes no difference, you have to learn to cope either way.

I dont have any answers i just wanted to check in with you all and share what bullshit i am clearly back on... and yes it is my own ;D