It's mainly just sad I think. Unimaginably sad that the people who were supposed to protect us didn't try very hard, now they're saying they were never even doing the basic things they asked us to do. We lost family and jobs and lives and moments - they didn't. We lost.

He was on full pay still with a job: we weren't. We were loopy and bored and powerless, getting fined when we tried to feel normal. They weren't. We missed births and deaths and hugs: he didn't and clearly the people protecting him didn't either.

There's always been a huge divide in this country between the haves and have nots: this is the clearest, easiest example I have ever seen of everyone being in the same position and some suffering, some not. There's no historic inequality to hide the differences behind here.

We were all in it together. Then we weren't. Then we were never in it.

How do we go from here? I feel really, really powerless.