I typed like 5 different tweets expressing the same sentiment, the fact that I& #39;m not okay.

Then I went through a whole process of elimination, thinking of all the negatives that can arise from me admitting vulnerability in here and why.

So I decided to type this instead.

I& #39;ve been thinking a lot lately, about the exhaustion that arouses from having to perform for others.

Even when you think you& #39;re being completely yourself, you& #39;re somehow self regulating for other& #39;s benefit.

I& #39;m supposed to be ok, and peppy, and role model-like.

I& #39;m angry, sad, frustrated, very very tired, and honestly suffocating by the very idea that this isn& #39;t a good look and so it needs to be put aside.

I wanted to put it here, because I know a lot of people are struggling in different ways too.

I can& #39;t keep up with the theatrics involved in being "likable" I& #39;m someone who& #39;s weighed down by a mountain of trauma, trying to tackle very real issues, who ended up in a position to influence others somehow.

I& #39;m not ok, and I want to be able to accept that this is fine.

And if this affects my influence, my career, my future goals, then so be it.

I& #39;m not ok, and that& #39;s ok.