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do you really, really have to ruin my whole day just like that.
Listen I'm weak to apologize. Like. Super weak. If you just say "hey sorry" 99.9% chances are me be liek "oh no I'M sorry"
it's just. Everytime someone said "sorry" to me it was ME who feels OBLIGATED to forgive, even thinks "what why?? What did I do to make them feel guilty?"
call it whatever terms you want to name it I don't freaking care. I know I'm weak and too dumb to be angry and too kindhearted I've been told that all my fucking life.
so if YOU really feel sorry for what you did, don't you DARE apologize.
Let me fucking hate you and trashtalking the fuck out of you in peace.
Let me fucking hate you and trashtalking the fuck out of you in peace.
because how DARE you make ME feel guilty and horrible and ruin my whole freaking good day (which is rare, with all these antidepressant pills and selfharms lmfao).
You did something horrible? You made me angry? WALK OUT OF MY LIFE.
You did something horrible? You made me angry? WALK OUT OF MY LIFE.
because when you apologize, YOU PAVE YOUR WAY TO HURT ME AGAIN. how fucking dare you
and worse? by you apologize and I forgive, I ME MYSELF LET YOU IN AGAIN. It's a motherfucking cycle I desperately want to pry myself outta it.
see I rant this thread and all the while I chant to myself "it's my fault it's my fault it's my fault it's my fault" HOW FUCKING DARE YOU.
