Many of you know me in real life and many are real friends even though we've not met. You know a bit about me. I've lost a daughter and a husband. I've had a few mental breakdowns. But I'm telling you, this Monty grief is as real as anything. Lockdown doesn't help.

I know it's pathetic but I just want a hug from my mum while I still have her. It's doing my fucking head in.