*Me the night before plans I have scheduled weeks in advance*

"Alright so what time do I have to accept that they arent gonna show up and also magically forgot to contact me at all? Im hoping around 3 because thats when Wingstop can deliver in like 20 minutes"

^That may seem crazy but my entire life is an endless cycle of people telling me how much I mean to them/how much they like me and then treating me like absolute garbage at every opportunity

Then people ask me everyday "Why are you like this?" when I talk about hating myself

Maybe its because the people that "cant live without me" have also been making me question if im actually worth even being around

In conclusion,

Some of yalls "love" is really trash because its not actual love but emotional manipulation you use to keep me around. No one else would accept being treated that way and still be willing to support or fight for you

But its cool though. I'll continue to accept less than what I deserve from people just so they dont have to be the loser around their other friends