I cannot be the only person laying awake with my brain whirring over events of the last couple of days. Lockdown has cost everyone something, livelihood, emotional connection, time with lived ones who dont have much left, personal safety, being with people at their life& #39;s end etc

But we & #39;got& #39; the notion of lockdown only workng as a collective action.
Some loathed & resented lockdown itself, for others having to accept edicts & strategizing from a party they dont trust whose ideologies they dont respect was https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😫" title="Tired face" aria-label="Emoji: Tired face"> but we have to be "all in" for it to work

So now both groups are betrayed. All our efforts feel crap. Sacrifices many of us made - tears & guilt-ridden as they were - feel like wrong decisions because we didnt have the & #39;nouse& #39; to make ", me, mine" the only denominator that mattered

and in with that I& #39;m scared.
I dont want to live in a dystopian drama. I dont want conspiracy theories about & #39;dark forces& #39; to be true. I just want the world to spin on an axis of genuine public service

so when asked to make sacrifices for the greater good - & #39;individual acts of public service& #39;, it is trustworthy and honest.

& not continuously shat on, ridiculed & undermined by puppeteers who feel to be sitting back, watching their plans roll through the lives of "the herd", observing their work, discussing its efficacy in achieving "the aims" which are clearly not the ones we thought they were.