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I’m not gonna pretend like I know first hand where Doja’s experience but I absolutely know some mixed girls from my predominantly white suburban high school that hated themselves in all the same ways and performed the same way and still do to this day.
And I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t adopt similar defense mechanisms (tho I would never make racist comments towards myself or others, don’t get it twisted) whilst trying to be friends with edgy white kids and ultimately it wasn’t worth it and I learned that very quickly
Like trying to be self aware before someone else could say some ignorant shit to me. “So what if I’m black and like alternative shit? Suck my dick” etc etc.
I will never forget one kid in particular telling me I couldn’t be black and a scene kid even tho his best friend at the time was another black scene girl— it was super weird. But he grew up with her and I was the new kid so that somehow made sense???
I mean me and this girl would literally be mistaken for one another or siblings. I personally don’t think we look alike but we’re the same complexion and all black people look the same to suburban whites so... 
All that to say I’ve been adjacent to the weird defense mechanisms Doja uses to absolve her self hate but I have things like a predominantly black, loving family and a college education. I can see how one would very easily fall into that black self loathing when you are without.
I lost a follower with this thread lmfao. I’m a mixed girl. I’m a black girl. Get over it.
