(thread) i’m having a day off tomorrow so today was my last walk of mental health awareness week & I went all out with it tbh 😭 I walked a route i have avoided since i was about 10(?) years old as it goes through a place i associate with significant trauma
I actually wanted to change route to avoid it and rejoin my parents later on, but found it too hard to explain the situation out loud, so I stuck with it. I began to seriously panic as we got closer and had to stop for a while, but eventually, with shaking legs, I walked past.
I was uneasy & upset. I honestly did not enjoy any part of it. I don’t even know if I’d find it any easier if I tried again next week. But i did it... and nothing happened. Everything was okay & I enjoyed the rest of my walk.
idk what i expected but my brain thought smth bad would happen. Mental health isn’t just full of success and growth, and this wasn’t rly that. It was horrible, but at least i did it, and my parents stood there and looked after me even though they didn’t know what was wrong ❤️
will i try it again soon? probably not. But I faced something that I’m scared of, that my brain told me would be bad, and it didn’t ruin my whole day or stop me from going out. and that’s pretty good going.
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