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Been thinking about this, trying to achieve more breakthroughs. I figured out a lot of the right steps needed to become a better version of myself. In this year, I got blocked by three friends. Only the one today told me the reason why. I can only speculate with the other two. https://twitter.com/BraydenSylva/status/1264205941265690624">https://twitter.com/BraydenSy...
I do have any harshness or resentment towards any of them as I know the cause of falling out was mostly tied to me. I& #39;m not gonna shade them. I& #39;m not gonna attack them. I understand why they did what they did. I am a difficult and complicated person that can be unsavory.
A lot of my friends, including the three that blocked me, claimed I& #39;m not bad. That I& #39;m good. Perhaps this is true but my mistakes and choices that were not probably thought out well, lead to a destruction of friendship. I& #39;m achieving some peace with this as I understand.
The one who blocked me today was a best friend. I loved them. I wanted their approval and trust. I shared and there were things that were red flags to them. Perhaps I could have paid closer attention. Perhaps I could have asked honestly if I was intimidating or toxic in some way.
I will never hate them for doing what they did today. I understand if they hate me forever. When they blocked me this morning, I felt a sense of "This makes sense. They had every right. I disappointed them." I even dissappointed myself. I have to be better.
There are flaws I must correct. All my life, I wanted to be a good person. Be as good as I can. I never want to hurt anyone but unintentional hurt is still hurt. I overthink and I miss things. I forget to see. Out of the three, I especially thank the one who blocked me today.
You did the right thing and always confronted me when I crossed a line. And I learned. You couldn& #39;t keep teaching or be patient with me. There were so many years and moments I wanted to have with you as I saw you as my best friend. And I destroyed that potential. Those dreams.
I will never forget you and the moments we had. I hope you& #39;re happy and I& #39;m sure you will be away. I& #39;m sorry and I am grateful for everything. It seems right that our paths will not meet again, if at all. Best to you. I sincerely mean that. I think we will find some peace.
You& #39;re on the path to yours and my path is still being determined. I hope to be a wiser and better person and I will be grateful forever, old friend. Thank you for everything. If you do see this, I apologize for any unfairness or anything offputting in this thread.
To those that knew or know me, I love you and I thank you. I shall begin to keep my promise of being better. For everyone in this world, for my present and former friends, and for me. I hope we all achieve our moral and ideal goals in our futures. No matter the obstacle.
