Words cannot express the amount of guilt an regret I have

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Anyhow, I don& #39;t feel like I even know myself anymore, I& #39;m going to look into seeking professional help, and leaning back

I don& #39;t understand myself anymore, for I& #39;m a fool and it shows.
Nothing will be able to show how much I despise

What I& #39;ve done
Again, I& #39;m going to seek professional help, because I feel like I& #39;m losing myself and I need it

As I may recieve the lash I deserve, I still love you guys, and the disgust and disappointment I see right now, I understand it

I& #39;m not upset by it, because I understand why, I hate myself too for this, the one thing I& #39;m so against

I know things will become hard for me

But I won& #39;t let that push me down, nor will it ever

But right now, help is what I need

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