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how is it that people even get followers on twitter. do i even want that? Do I use actual capital letters and non-shitty sentences? idk this whole twitter thing seems grimey
i dont even make or produce anything. i just fucking sit in my room on my pc and wimp out at any prospect
i dont even make or produce anything. i just fucking sit in my room on my pc and wimp out at any prospect
of actual creating something. like learning to draw is a tangible goal. or learning to code. but ill try and get started and give up immediately because i basically just take the path of least resistance where i can, and that path is watching youtube for hours on end
id love to create something. but im unable to put in the effort to do something about it. my head is so fucking full of ideas i want to do something with but its easier for me to live with that and not do something with them than actually put in effort, learn, and complete
a project. im a lazy fucking failure who won& #39;t be able to do anything in the future, because its just so easy to consume shit and not do anything. my parents will probably grow to loathe me or something idk because im entitled and wont have amounted to anything.
i dont know how much longer this can go. grades coming soon, will probably be shit, wont get into uni, so i wont be able to put off getting an actual job for a few more years. is this depression? idk, at least i can listen to kamattechan and not feel like shit for the time being
im not even unlucky. ive done this to myself; im a failure of my own volition. i have both parents, and theyre both kind. i disagree with them, but of course i would, theyre my parents. there are so many people put into worse situations than me whove done something.
so many people basically the same as me who have done something. to consider myself worse off than so many other people who started in shitter circumstances feels disgusting on my part.
at the same time, i struggle to care
im using flowery language to make it seem like to myself like i care, but i struggle to do that
i struggle to care because i know deep down im not really at risk. itll suck to an extent, but despite ideas of creative endeavours,
im using flowery language to make it seem like to myself like i care, but i struggle to do that
i struggle to care because i know deep down im not really at risk. itll suck to an extent, but despite ideas of creative endeavours,
at the end of the day ill just sit down behind a screen and watch more youtube as my friends go and do things. i think struggling to care about this is what confuses me more than whats actually happening
is it a sign of worry not to care? idk, im not going to get an answer to this by someone else, because they wouldnt know what to fucking say.
sometimes i feel like im making it up because i can still have fun, i can have incredibly fun times with my friends when i do talk
sometimes i feel like im making it up because i can still have fun, i can have incredibly fun times with my friends when i do talk
with them. which would lead me to believe thats its not actually a problem. do all people feel like this? ok i know thats a lie lol. i should end this thread, im gonna catch myself in a loop
