one thing that bugs me out so much about the "rush" to reopen things, the actual unkind behavior shown to essential workers, folks that work in the food service industry, folks that work in supermarkets, for example, is that there is no real care or concern about lives lost.

about 98,000 today, more than 100,000 by the end of next week. i know folks that have lost 20, 25, 30 people between families, friends and acquaintances.

and each life lost is a real person with hopes and dreams and accomplishments, with desires and joys and heartbreaks, with pleasures and pains.

yet folks traipse along as if it's nothing at all, as if those very specific and individual lives lost do not have ripple effects for families and friends that grieve but cannot gather, cannot hold and be held, cannot find explanations sufficient bc of the absurdity of it all.

it's really sad. depleting. fatiguing. and i keep hoping for a world that is better than this one, that we can be that other kind of world in this one. i hope but there is so much grief.

we've lost people that had favorite songs and things they loved to eat, things that made them laugh until they cried, things that brought them delight and calm.

it is so unkind and cruel to "move on" and "reopen" when we are still in the midst of loss and when we have not honored the ones that have passed on in any real kind of collective ceremony.