Late night thoughts but I feel that as I reached a certain age, I become more disassociated with fandom, e.g. I no longer have the energy to chase and fight on charts, or get involved in petty squabbles anymore, I just want to enjoy the happiness and joy I get from loving smth/sb

Talk to those moots about happy things, purely enjoying the content, or sharing the content/information with other fans, that's it. Maybe it's a selfish thought (?) but I'm getting more tired of dramas all the time, nothing is ever the end, there's a base for discussion alright

No celebrity ever knows you specifically as a fan, and they definitely do not belong to you solely. Love them passionately, but also live and love your own life equally passionately as well, don't live for others alright?

Loving VIXX was my kpop phrase, and I think I'm already past the stage of ever being that into any other kpop group anymore (ofc I still love them), and now that I'm into actors, its definitely a diff experiences than idols for sure, and I think I'm alright with my current status

But I definitely do feel that maybe (?) after actors, from now on I might probably never be that into any fandom anymore, I might just be drifting across dramas and shows once in a while, but I'll probably be chasing for more vivid life experiences and self-improvement eventually

There are so many things I want to experience: musicals, travelling, new skills, new hobbies and trying to become a better person tomorrow than the me today, and I don't regret chasing after idols during my youth bc that shaped who I am today, and are all precious memories

Damn maybe it's the old soul in me speaking sksksks but yeah, these are just some thoughts
Don't worry I'm not leaving or anything, it's just some personal opinions that I established in light of recent events in the fandoms and my own reflections of my current life