STORYTIME: Quarantine hasn’t been great for me (mentally). It started off chill and then anxiety said “whatitdobaby?!” & I haven’t been the same since.

Everyday I still did my best to be productive. I woke up prayed, read the Word. I called and texted friends. Started/finished work stuff - tried to have a routine and stick with it.

More recently, I couldn’t even wrap my mind around the routine. It became more & more difficult everyday.

This is not my first round with anxiety - but it’s never felt like THIS....where I had to talk myself through the next breath. I sat with my family, so I wasn’t crying half of the day.

The other day I woke up and I was standing in my bathroom, at the time I set aside for prayer and worship, and honestly in that moment that was the last thing I wanted to do. So, I said to God “I can’t do this right now.”

I felt like I didn’t have anything to say to Him.

And immediately, so sweetly, I felt God’s presence in my bathroom and I heard Him say, “That’s okay.”

God didn’t want me to pretend. He didn’t want me to “show up”. If there’s one person that wants us authentically, isn’t it Him?

More than that, those two words started breaking down so much more. Along with the anxiety, I was warring with myself for “succumbing” to this. Aren’t I stronger?

But, that’s okay that you haven’t been feeling great - it’s ALOT going on around us & within us.

It’s completely okay that you don’t have the energy to be on the phone & check in on all your loved ones - take the time and check in on you.

We are all going through the same moment right now, with everyone having different responses to it. Some people are having the best moments they’ve ever had & THAT’S OKAY.

Don’t feel bad that this time has been amazing for you!

Wherever you are mentally during this time, be gentle with yourself. Go at your own pace. Yes, you are strong, but you can only rely on your own strength for so long. Let God carry you. He knows what He’s doing