realizations. reinvention. growth.

a fuckin SEMI-SENSIBLE THREAD;

To start with, i wanna ask a question to you who’s reading this right atm,, When are you going to get tired??+

Time came where I really didn’t want to end some chapters, there was once a chapter where I didn’t feel like reading it and there were also some chapters where I felt tiredness because of reading the same story over and over again++

You might be blaming yourself for making each chapters in your life be the worst ones ever written, but sometimes, it is not because of you, it is because of them.

Some of these miserable stories happened were caused by and came along with different relationships— FRIENDS, a PARTNER, just a “KALANDIAN” or barely even a STRANGER++

You are busy valuing friendships that don’t need your interest. You are always misheard and misunderstood. You were pushed away by the persons you cared the most about++

How they exist and their happiness matters to you. You forgot what really matters is whether “YOURS” ALSO matters to them++

I know the feeling how to care without having returned. You are forcing things like attention or love, you are merely begging for things that don’t exist at the first place++

Time and efforts given to those who did not even bother to say thank you nor appreciate you++

Your company shared to someone who didn’t feel like that person wants your company all the time, in other words you are just an option to go to. ++

Believe me when I say........++

It’s okay to shutdown a friend or any freakin relationship without explaining why especially when you are being taken for granted way too long++

So I finally decided to STOP BEING AVAILABLE TO SOMEONE UNAVAILABLE!!!

Stop wanting to be wanted by everyone. Stop sacrificing your joy, only to make them happy. Stop asking people to care for you, because some are not really willing to care++

It is okay to be tired of giving :> ++

Please remind yourself that you are not weak if you have failed to save someone, maybe because that someone really doesn’t wanna be saved by you.++

I need you to understand that YOU ARE NOT RUINED FOR HAVING LOVED A PERSON WHO WAS INCAPABLE OF LOVING YOU THE WAY YOU WERE MADE TO BE LOVED++

Stop feeling as if you were made to heal others because it will be easier for you to forget that YOU WERE ALSO MADE TO HEAL YOURSELF

I am not saying to stop fighting for them lolll coz it is okay to fight for someone who loves you pero what is not ok is fighting for someone to love you :>> ++

I found these chapters very strange, dark and it’s as if there were trains that will gonna hit you. So much miseries and heartaches

So I came to realize na not all who caused you pain and burden were there para lang pahirapan ka, they didn’t ruin you, they built you.++

They challenged you. They shaped you. They grew you and they taught you about yourself++

So if it hurts, it means it must. It is bound to happen and there’s no other way but to learn and grow from it++

There are CANCEROUS people but because of these people you will be able to find those who will make a difference in your life

You can’t love abusive people for you to heal them then they can love you coz it doesn’t work that way+

You didn’t lose them because you begged them to stay but you lost ‘yourself’

So stop the complications and give yourself the things you were busy of giving others. Make self-care a priority if you want a difference to happen++

You were in failures&pain because you are bound to be the greatest version of you bitchh!!++

Walk away from that person and pls understand that Love doesn’t mean you can give all the chances and answer them ”YES”, but Love also means having to say “NO”

As parting words, if you can relate to this THREAD, and have been through so much rejections,sacrifices,pain, I want you to know that you hava a rare heart—— the purest itself