Depression makes no sense... my mind is spinning right now trying to make these feelings I’m having logical but despite it not matching with reality, my brain still can’t come out of feeling worthless.

It’s like, everything is okay. It’s not the best sure.. but I feel so unsatisfied. So unfulfilled. So pointless. Why? I feel trapped in my own skull.

I just wonder when will I have a good streak of good days. Freeing days. Why can’t those days last? Always the negatives that stick around the longest.

Moments like this makes me understand why death feels like the only escape. (I’m not currently suicidal don’t worry) but I understand. It’s really difficult to exist when all you feel is apathy and worthlessness.

Might delete this thread later. Just needed to get my thoughts out in some way...