This is a toxic toxic place. I come here for joy and leave frustrated.

I always preach positivity and fairness here. I always treat everyone that comes my way with respect because I never want to read about anyone dying here.

I was bullied for a huge part of my life. I know

How it feels. I have wanted to end my life over it. I created a character to help me cope. I have done damage due to me being bullied.

There is no victory in winning arguments or making people feel like shit here. Only losses. And sometimes they’re greater than we can imagine

I root on many people here. People who have BPD like me and other personality disorders. People who struggle. I will continue to do so. I hope some of you learn something from this. You never know what someone is dealing with on the other end of the computer tablet or phone

You never know if someone had a bad day or a traumatic encounter. You never know how bad their self loathing is. You never know someone’s story unless they tell you. I am not perfect. I have done bad things but I try to learn and get better. I hope everyone does the same.

The world needs more love and support. Especially when we’re all in the middle of this pandemic. You never know what tomorrow brings and like Kanye said once nothing ever promised tomorrow today and that obviously includes waking up in the morning. I’d rather make people

Smile than cry. Rest In Peace #HanaKimura you were too young and from what I can tell too cool to have this fate.

Thank you for reading this.