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You know what’s funny about this picture? I look so incredibly happy, but it was taken days before I tried to kill myself. I really thought I was done wanting to be alive, and still wonder what would have happened if I was successful. But I can’t keep wondering (1/?)
You know what’s funny about this picture? I look so incredibly happy, but it was taken days before I tried to kill myself. I really thought I was done wanting to be alive, and still wonder what would have happened if I was successful. But I can’t keep wondering (1/?)
I have to live my life off what did happen : I lost my best friend, I found out my boyfriend at the time was cheating on me, and the social worker told me my home life was too toxic to stay there. So I moved to Alabama, moved back to Ohio, went back to college, (2/?)
Started in a different degree program, became a tour guide, found my way to Wisconsin, and found things to live for. I’ve published a poetry book, finished college, started my career, got accepted to a Master’s program, got HELLA tattoos, and moved to a city I adore. (3/?)
My life is insanely different from who I was three years ago, but that doesn’t mean I’m totally better. Even this past week I had ideations and questioned why I was still alive. But I’m still here for a reason and every day is a journey to find a new reason. (4/?)
Some days it’s my nieces and nephews, some days my job, some days it’s just the smell of the summer air, some days I don’t know what it is. But every day is a new chance to find something to make life feel worth living. I won’t find it every day and that’s okay. (5/?)
As long as I can keep enough momentum to get to the next day, my odds of finding something are still good. Life is still, overall, good. And that’s what I need to remind myself of, and others. So, next time I’m depressed, someone send me this thread, and maybe (6/7)
Help me find the thing that makes me want to stay alive. Three years is an amazing thing and I want to say I’m glad I’m still here.
