everytime i see a lowkey ugly but still kinda hot lanky dude and he has like messed up hair and looks like he doesn't give a fuck i die a little bit inside bc i get the "no matter how hard i try i will never achieve that" feeling and that's on internalised misogyny and lesbianism

i wear short skirts and blouses bc the idea of TRYING to look like that and failing, bc ultimately it's impossible, is even worse

the idea that i could never fully achieve that is both true and just misogyny at the same time. i can't fully achieve it bc i know what i long for is that carefreeness that comes with moving through the world as a man, and even if i dressed like that it would not grant me that

but the idea that me trying to achieve that aesthetic is an automatic failure is misogyny, because who is to say a gnc woman is just a lesser man