I got so much shit going around in my head and its like a tornado.

It hurts so much to the point i just dont wanna sleep anymore because i am scared.

Im glad i have my friends who care alot for me because i would be stuck in life without them. They help me through so much shit

Sometimes im on a happy high. Sometimes im on a sad high.

And it really pisses me off because i just wanna be happy with my friends instead of bringing a downer sometimes.

But it feels like a demon is eating away at my brain. Slowly but its getting there.

My friends say to join call and i get slightly happy and they always try to cheer me up. And still i make mistakes but im only human.

I try to fix alot of problems and hear out what i have done wrong to someone if i have upset them. But idk sometimes i think it dosn't help.

To my friends now thankyou. You help me through so much shit and i couldn't be more grateful.

And if i do anything wrong please tell me. Please dont leave me guessing to just hurt me i can't do it anymore.

I just want to be a good guy and a good friend to everyone.

I have never had a big social group so balancing between friendgroups is sometimes hard but i just manage to try and be there because i lost too many people i care about.

And again thankyou to all of you.

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Im sorry about this thread. I just had to let it out.