i think the only thing thats been really fucking with me during quarantine is my mental health. i wouldnt say it's being in the house thats fucking me up, but the lack of distractions from intrusive thoughts and feelings. being on twt/ig isnt helping that much anymore either

my moods change so quickly and drastically, it's really hard to cope nowadays and im not sure why tbh. but going from :D!!! to "i want to kms," happens at least once or twice a day and it's extrrrreeemely draining. going that high to that low and lately i just been simmering init

simmering meaning that ..,.,.,.,. i just cant really do anything about how im feeling and it makes me feel stuck and hopeless? almost dfjog. and it sucks bc i dont want to bother anyone about it because it happens SO frequently.

tw/ suicide ment

like my main concern lately is that .. i talk about wanting to die so much that no one takes me serious and when i do reach that point of possibly relapsing or something worse that no one really believes me? lol for lack of better words. it's just a thought rlly

idk. i just feel really stuck right now??? feels weird?? almost out of body really. my brain doesnt feel like it's working how it's supposed to and i cant really do anything to fix it but sit here lol . idk what the point of this thread was except i just wanted to talk lol sorry