heheh i was really depressed earlier because i& #39;m not where i want to be in life - my grades are poor, i& #39;m struggling in my classes, i don& #39;t know what i want to do for my career, i& #39;m way overweight, and generally dissatisfied with who i am and what i look like... but i& #39;m happy to

have my friends beside me. even though i suffer from paranoia, and anxiety, and other issues that make it hard for me to completely be who i want to be, there are people who like me and spend time with me regardless of my issues, and that makes me really happy.

i& #39;m 21 today and nowhere near the person i wished i would be on my 21st. this quarantine has stalled a lot of things in my life: i& #39;m unable to learn, my mental health and eating issues returning, not being able to lose weight, having to stall my transition... all of it is

really hard for me, and i& #39;m really struggling to keep my head up. every day i wish i could be someone different- smarter, more talented, skinnier, better with people... but at least i& #39;m alive, right? i want to do better. after finals, i& #39;ll take the grades given to me and i& #39;ll do

better. i& #39;ll try not to give up. i don& #39;t know how long this optimism will last, if it will at all, but i& #39;m just thankful for the people who stay by my side regardless of my faults. thank you... i don& #39;t know what the point of this thread is, besides to vent my feelings, but yeah.