yo real talk: even though i’ve come a long way from opiate addiction to finding myself through shroom trips, meditation and running insanely long distances in the mountains, i still get super depressed sometimes. there’s underlying trauma there still.

i still find myself isolated with this newfound passion. i run for 1-7 hrs at a time completely alone. while it’s extremely gratifying while i’m out there, when i return home both physically and mentally, i often return to this feeling of emotional emptiness.

im at the point in my life where i need to stop running away from it and talk to a therapist. it’s something i’ve tried many times in the past but wasn’t as open to it. i’m ready to heal the trauma that i glossed over with drugs, and now endorphins fr running

i guess my point of this thread is to convey that even if you’ve grown and changed for the better, it still may be necessary to talk to a professional to unpack what caused you to hurt in the first place. you are loved, by me at least https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="💜" title="Purple heart" aria-label="Emoji: Purple heart">