I’m really starting to get back to how I spiritually was when I was younger. There was a time where I really felt the Bible to be real and I feel like I’ve lost that along the way but the Lord still kept me as a child of God. I’m growing more closer to Jesus like I used to be.

All of this came recently really. Ever since the quarantine lockdown and it provided for a time of new awakenings and learning things (from books and online findings) on what’s REALLY going on around me. There’s alot of spiritual things happening behind the scenes.

The Occult is outspread everywhere. Satanism is everywhere. The open and public acceptance of witchcraft is everywhere. Paganistic and demonic sub-context are in these entertainment creations that we just kind of glance over if not fully aware and have been digesting for years.

So many things have been inserted behind blind eye that have been ingrained as normal in society to digest and include in your everyday life. This stuff is real. Even the occultists can tell you it is. It’s just a massive large scale attack on Christ.

But guess what...Christ wins in the end anyway

And as a child of God it’s important to become and stay aware of these spiritual and very real things that are around us and that are conjured and placed to threaten the spirit of Christ. The more I learn and the more God shows me things, the more I understand the seriousness.

I have been through terrible dark places in my life. And I mean terrible. Depression, suicidal thoughts, feeling of worthlessness, wanting human acceptance more than acceptance from Christ, egotism, sexual immorality, porn addiction, blasphemous thoughts, running to alcohol..

..listening to occult-laced/Satanic rap and rock artists, watching anime (which has plenty of occult-related/Satanic hidden messages), watching exorcism/paranormal/possession horror films, going to CONCERTS of of these people, not seeing my value the way God sees my value..

..tried cigarettes, engaged in New Age feminism (now which I want nothing to do with after realizing it’s based on anti-Christian pagan goddess worship & flooded with wiccans and hate towards the authority of Jesus and the Bible, yet dressed up to be a “progressive” thing)..

..jealousy, having doubts about the promises of God, celebrating Halloween (which originated as a pagan festival and was later adopted by the Catholic Church and was STILL a pagan activity, so to celebrate that as a Christian is really just casually celebrating demonic entities)

..and yet after all of that...Christ still kept me. Protected me from death on multiple occasions. Kept me while I was IN the dark and blind. Protected me from situations that would further distract or hurt me. Gave me discernment, a new awakening, and saved me.

So I have a new outlook on the reality of the Gospel and just how real the influence of Satan has been and currently is in society. I can use my testimony to do the Lord’s Will. There’s definitely a spiritual battle going on and this is real life. But Christ does win in the end.

The things I stated will be revisited type of subjects to either state growth from, exposure of, or better understanding of from new learning, among other things not stated.

And I’m still working on and struggling with things that have plagued me for years and years of my lifetime. Things I have mentioned in this thread. Not all of these are past tense. But let’s just say I have a new driven soul. I’m trying to better my relationship with Christ.

I have a MUCH better understanding of Christ’s grace and it took me this long to understand it. You can’t receive eternal life through works alone or what “you” may think is good enough. It’s solely through the Blood of Christ, repentance, grace, and really getting to know Him.