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If this relationship won’t work out I’ll never get into another relationship until I feel confident with my well being. Having a boyfriend means I’ll get easily triggered, doesnt matter who the boyfriend is.
Why does this happen?
Why does this happen?
The biggest reason I have mental health condition is because of my problematic family(the closest people in my life) and since I don’t have none of them, my boyfriend would be the closest person to a family that I have. Hence, that’s why a boyfriend could affect me much.
It’s because he’s like a part of my life. I think it’s not just me, like imagine a stranger called you babi and such, you won’t be affected at all but what if we put our family members/boyfriend/friends at the stranger place? Ofc you’re gonna be so disappointed and broken aite?
But my problem is, with BPD i tend to over react on what happens in the presence. Like, my brain comes later after I’ve made a stupid act. Most of the time I’ll act according to the most “shouldn’t do” actions.
For now I’ve been able to control myself IF i got overwhelmed alone. Example: I’m alone in my room and suddenly all the bad memories are playing in my head, I’ll do deep breathing and distract myself from doing something else.
But I can only do this when I’m alone.
But I can only do this when I’m alone.
Situation 2.
Someone did something wrong
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My brain weren’t present atm.
I believe this act is actually a toxic trait. No one could ever handle it as others have feelings too.
Someone did something wrong
My brain weren’t present atm.
I believe this act is actually a toxic trait. No one could ever handle it as others have feelings too.
People would always think “Mare ni asal cepat sentap” “Mare ni tak relax” “kau dah kenapa” and end up orang akan marah i balik and I’ll get sad and push people away from me bcs from that I realised I deserve no one, I’m a monster, I hurt everyone around me.
“Habistu Mare sampai bila kau nak macam ni? Do you think it’s fair for others if you keep on using ur mental illness victim card?”
Ofc it’s not fair, it’s not fair to everyone including me as I’m not fully under control of my brain. I don’t want to be in this condition too.
Ofc it’s not fair, it’s not fair to everyone including me as I’m not fully under control of my brain. I don’t want to be in this condition too.
“Alah Mare, kau boleh je control kau buat gini gini”
Dude, even a robot couldn’t do all things at one time. I’ve only had ONE therapy session and since before that I’ve been trying to ‘fix’ myself. Being able to control myself when I’m alone is also considered as a progress.
Dude, even a robot couldn’t do all things at one time. I’ve only had ONE therapy session and since before that I’ve been trying to ‘fix’ myself. Being able to control myself when I’m alone is also considered as a progress.
I appreciate my progress. But the journey on getting better, i can visualise it using a graph. It’s not constantly/gradually increasing, there’s still up and down. For now I managed to make my breaking down point lower than my previous breaking down point.
I still haven’t achieved was told to achieve during my first therapy
1. Self acceptance
At times I still hate myself for having BPD.
2. Create new norm.
This means that I need to learn how to blend in with others and act like others despite of me having a condition.
1. Self acceptance
At times I still hate myself for having BPD.
2. Create new norm.
This means that I need to learn how to blend in with others and act like others despite of me having a condition.
*what was told.
How can I create new norms if I can’t even accept myself?
I still think I’m a monster.
For now I don’t know if whether I should believe my own thoughts or not.
How can I create new norms if I can’t even accept myself?
I still think I’m a monster.
For now I don’t know if whether I should believe my own thoughts or not.
If you have a friend with BPD, other than to know how to avoid from triggering his/her break down, you should know how to avoid yourself from being stressed when you’re dealing with them.
This is important. It isn’t only for them but for you too.
This is important. It isn’t only for them but for you too.
The photos will explain what do I feel and how do I act as I have BPD.
I understand if you would hate me, I’ve read a lot of article saying that many psychiatrist tend to avoid patients with BPD.
How can I not hate myself after knowing that people hate people like me?
I understand if you would hate me, I’ve read a lot of article saying that many psychiatrist tend to avoid patients with BPD.
How can I not hate myself after knowing that people hate people like me?
