CW: Mental health, Depression
I think I've gotta admit - I'm in a new, unexplored kind of depression right now.
Unlike my normal "this existence is fruitless and ultimately wretched" I feel like a sleepy fish trapped in a plastic bag with very little water.

I've spent maybe... 20 hours? trying to revamp Opus of Extrinsic Substance for re-release, but have made MAYBE 3 changes. I've just spent hours and hours STARING at it, DREAMING of my next break to play minecraft or make coffee or something. Like i'm hunting for fish food.

I was awake, in bed, exhausted for about 9 hours last night before I drifted off for 3-4 hours. now it's 5:50pm and i've really only been up for a few hours.
It kinda... weighs down onto me like a wet shirt.

And i find myself BEGGING to NOT see a new message/call/text.

Yeah. It's a new one, very different from my normal MUCH MORE OBVIOUS situation. I didn't even realize I was feeling weird until yesterday and didn't want to admit it until today.

So... here's hoping I can get a handle on it.

If you're depressed, you're not alone. No one is. <3