Ever get farmed for clickbait?
(Thread, thoughts, feelings, apology, written to many different people)

I feel like my voice has been taken from me. I've been straining trying to take it back, since.
So many people have attended my Q/A stream segments and left seeing me different, it gives me hope.
I spend most of my time nowadays trying to correct my perception.

I'm continually understanding the bounds of this extreme standard I am held to.
It's my responsibility to not speak anything that can be clipped, trimmed, and used against me, always removing who I was responding to.
But also, I'm a Streamer, I engage with people.
I'm not perfect

I've been harassed, doxxed, and impersonated.
There's one specifically nasty impersonator using my name with a capital i instead of L, who has fooled so many people.
Twitter has done nothing about it for days.
I've seen too many images/gifs of deer getting killed.

"Supremacists"

I've been engaged by people who have made it clear they don't want gaming to be more inclusive of minorities. they believe gaming belongs to them and want it kept that way. They are undesiring of any amount of discourse, or compromise.
(Read next tweet!)

I do not haphazardly apply this perception to anyone or everyone.
Disagreeing with me is not cause for me to label someone like this.
I, like anyone who tries, do my best to allow everyone to show and tell me who they are.
It's clearly very hard to call this sort of behavior out.

I am especially sorry for my peers and friends, who have been pressured to make judgements about me and this situation.
I feel the responsibility of so much stress I have caused.
Also for the unsafety i've brought to my community.
I didn't ask for this, neither did you.

If you are angry at me, why?

I'm not going to ruin games for you, at worst I'm going to introduce you to an uncomfortable perspective.

I'm a gamer too, been one my whole life.
I'm 27, I played multiplayer shooters when I was 2. Videogames and game culture is in my blood.

I always have and always will try to make this world a better place.
I'm incredibly sensitive and deeply motivated to bring happiness to people; all people, not just my community.
I hope someone can see me and feel more valid about who they are, and more free to be authentic.

If you want to talk about voice chat, now is not the time. I did not invite this conversation, you can hear my opinions on stream from Q/A's. In time a good conversation/interview will arise. There are other things going on right now.

Thank you.
I hope these tweets assist your understanding of me and the situation.
Your kind messages and support are getting heard.
Doing my best everyday.