We also need to have the conversation that the death of a loved one with both a relief and a loss. It& #39;s a personal experience, but I& #39;ve only ever felt free since my mom died, I just didn& #39;t have the ability to be as free as I knew I truly was because I was still a minor.

It& #39;s just...her family. It& #39;s too stressful. And now that my grandmother is gone, I just feel like I can finally heal and break free from that toxicity. It honestly feels so good. I don& #39;t think I have ever felt this light in my life and this is what I& #39;ve longed for since I was 15.

The obligation is just too much to carry. It really was just killing me and unfortunately, I did not look after myself as well and as much as I could& #39;ve throughout that. I don& #39;t have to carry any of this anymore, and thank fucking God. Thank you. My life is mine. God bless truly!

When you have such a close exp w/ death, you learn and come to realize how much death holds, how much it gives you. You don& #39;t have to prove a relationship or a love, it& #39;s there in your heart, and that& #39;s enough. To have those freeing deaths in my life, I& #39;m truly blessed for that.

I& #39;ve always ensured that I wouldn& #39;t have regrets when it came to the living. And so I don& #39;t feel burdensome in the aftermath of those losses, and that to me not only proves my character here on Earth, but gives me peace. And I& #39;m taking that peace, and I& #39;m choosing to live in it.

This thread sums up the insight parental loss during adolescence gives you. You go through a lot so young & overcome it. It just takes its time. I& #39;m at ease nearly 9yrs later. It took 9yrs for everything to fall into place. Those yrs were heavy. This is the beauty of growing up.