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I slut shame myself a lot. Despite my efforts to be super open minded, I still struggle to keep sex and my worth(?) apart. No judgement to anyone who has multiple sex partners or has a FWB situation going on but whenever I feel myself getting onto the fwb track
It makes me feel extremely weird. A) I don't meet guys off of dating apps a lot hence my sexual activity is already very limited. B) if I do meet someone, deep down I intend to date that guy and subconsciously hope that it turns into a relationship.
Many a time, 3 times off the
Many a time, 3 times off the
Top of my head I've distanced myself from guys who liked me romantically and sexually but I didn't like them back. Even getting physical with them made me feel cheap as if I was damaging or ruining myself for my future boyfriend (I haven't has a boyfriend in over 6 years)
I have no idea how to get out of this loop. I may talk a big slutty game on the tl but in reality I'm a wimp. Also this is why I resort to online interactions because you're getting the sexual gratification off of a real person and not porn, but you're also not physically being
With them that makes me less of damaged goods. Maybe all of this is internalized homophobia because I try to be a religious person and the religious aspect of it holds me back from being promiscuous. Idk.
If I were to date someone wouldn't judge them on their body count but I wouldn't want them to think of me as a person who has slept around a lot. The "saving myself" for the right person I guess is very deeply embedded in my mind. Which is why I've been "saving" myself
(All the way sex) to be with the person I'm in a loving relationship with.
There is no point to this thread. If you've made it this far, hi, hello, be my friend pls.
There is no point to this thread. If you've made it this far, hi, hello, be my friend pls.
