I get misogynistic and transphobic abuse online every single day, it's relentless and often plainly horrific, but honestly I can handle most of it. I think I'm pretty good at not letting it affect me

What I really struggle with is fearing for my future

Misogynists and LGBTphobes are ignorant and/or worthless people. Their views are demonstrably bad. We are better than them. I'm not trying to downplay abuse, it's horrible, but that's how I deal with it

But what happens when they are the ones making the laws?

I've spent a long time getting to the place where I am not insecure about who I am, and I think I've done it. When someone treats me as lesser I don't feel it, I feel like they're ignorant or just a shit a person incapable of acting rationally

Abuse is upsetting but not cutting

I've spent so long trying to find out what is right. Trying to make sure my internal model of the world is rational and matches the evidence. Trying to find and confront my internal bias and prejudice

And none of that matters if someone who cares about none of that is in power

I care about the truth and about having integrity. I've always told myself to just follow the evidence and tell the truth, even if painful, and it'll work out

But I'm finding it hard to believe that. Propaganda is just more powerful than truth a lot of the time. Integrity loses

I'm sure this is something that a lot of people have faced to a degree, and I'm sorry if I come across as whiney. But I'm sitting here worrying that they might take my rights away over literally, demonstrably nothing and I just don't know how to handle it

If truth, logic and evidence don't work then I've got nothing. What can you possibly do when you're up against something that is totally cool with "A equals not A" and has all the power?

I feel hopeless and powerless

I need a hug