rather than taking on the role of convincing others that intimacy is beautiful and worth the risk, i just align with those who share in that sentiment and experience it with them. i'm not in the business of convincing you to open your heart. you closed it for a reason.

that's just where i am now. people that are bitter and hurting don't want to hear about how it could be better because right now, their pain says it is not possible. minding my business means not preaching and letting that part of their path play out. all in due time.

sometimes people have to be left to hurt because it is a lesson in self-healing. you'll get tired of it. i promise. i did.

i love love. i love intimacy. i love the risk that comes with experiencing others and learning lessons from them. i'm not trapped in a delusion of "this is 'the one'", this is "forever" or any of that. i am in the present moment, soaking in people's love because i deserve to.

all of that rejecting love and being afraid of being hurt is not for me because i have already shown myself that no one can hurt me like i hurt myself and the main way i hurt myself is by lying and saying i don't deserve love. i don't believe that.

you wanna be closed hearted and hate everyone, that's on you. but i could never accept that being a person that loves makes me foolish. at least i'm not miserable. so there's that.