anyway i am sure we have all had moments where we wanted validation a la kudos/comments especially from something as personal as fanfiction but if you think about it why would you cook someone else’s favorite food for yourself. you’re going to die of dissatisfaction. not worth it

plus in the long term you’re going to have like calcium deficiencies and shit because you keep paying attention to what other people need and even if those people drop by for dinner what about the nights when you’re eating alone and watching neon genesis evangelion on netflix

when it comes to those nights, which will be most nights unless you are lord baron the sex man, who’s going to tell you how good your food is? that’s right. it’s you. you are the single most important existence in the universe; more than ever when it comes to writing fan fiction

after all, what are you a fan of, some other fan? what the fuck is going on here? something about the canon material spoke to you. the other horses in the background are unimportant unless they are your friends in which please neigh back. but ultimately fanfiction is about you

and what you want to say back to the canon. you’re not going to remember how many kudos that fic got in 2053. no you will probably be thinking about global warming. so before global warming nukes us all, write the shit you want to see. make it happen. cook that ten course meal

QED my kurobasu fics may have like 100 kudos in total across all 6 (????) i posted last year but when i look back at them i’m like damn i remember projecting Extra Hard on kuroko in this one and that one and that one and basically all of them and it’s like no one saw it but I Did

you are your first and last witness. you are your (discreet cough) first and last line of defense against the (discreet hacking sounds) universe. anyway today’s disappointment Will Fade as you open a news app or you go on to college/dog adoption/a new apartment. hang in there