great love — a thread

i don't know why i will share this but hell yea, i will...

we're classmates when we were in grade *, he's new to our class. ilang beses na muntik kaming mag katabi but becos of the loudness of my classmates laging naiiba

we don't talked and its ok with me becos im in some kind of relationship that time, but that relationship has no assurance

days has passed, we have to transfer classroom for some reason. so, new seating arrangement. muntik nanaman kami mag katabi pero nasa likod ko naman sya

and that's the reason why we became super close as in and they thought that we have a thing or what but as what i said i am in a complicated relationship that time

dahil nga walang kasiguraduhan, I talked to the guy that im telling you, i got tired of that relationship. he's famous, and the girls that has a crush on him, they keep on bashing me.

di ako sumbungera but that time, napuno na ako sa lahat with all the judgements that were all wrong, that's why i told him that we have to stop these. he didn't agreed but i insist, and he can't do anything abt it and then we parted ways.

im sad that time, yes. but thats not the life, i need to look forward and see what's on the other side and there he is, he never left my side, my great love. he comforted me and also teased me but that time i don't have any feelings for him

and i had a good life with those months becos im with him, we talked abt things that only the two of us can understand. everything became light

im the only one who can play with his hair, we always tease each other, there are times that i have a tissue wipes with me then he will get some of it and give to me, and ask me to clean his face with it. such a baby, baby damulag hahaha

it was a great year for me, we made a lot of memories. the school year is near to its end, we need to bid goodbyes to each other. i gave my close friends and classmates a hugs. until the dismissal, and he is the only one who i haven't hugged yet.

there are few students left at the room, and when i saw him, he extended his arms, ready for the hug, then i hugged him but i thought of doing something. i removed my hands on him then put it on my face

he held me on my shoulder and I think, he was looking at me, then he hugged me again, he said sorry many times, "sorry kung may nagawa man ako, hush sorry, sorry na"

i was so shocked with what he said, he doesn't know how to say sorry, but woah, and then i let out a loud laugh, he pushed me, while walking away from me, he was saying cursed words. I laughed when he left and confused at the same time, what did he said again?

i was really confused that time, i keep on asking myself. ano ba nararamdaman ko? ano ba to? but im scared to know the truth

and the next thing i knew it was a new school year for us this is what i'm scared of. we're still best of friends, but i know i have a different feeling towards him.

i tried to focus on my acads and also tried to find other 'crush', but i know at the end of the day, i'll still fall for him.

the issues between us got bigger because of our closeness, even though they won't say it right in front of my face, i know that they are thinking more than we really is

one time, my friend told me that he was looking at me, and whenever our eyes meet, he'll just smile or look at the other place, it happened so many times, but i ignored it becos i dont want to give any false hope unto myself. cuz i know i'm the one who'll lose at the end.

we're still teasing each other, played some games like 'titigan challenge' kung sino unang tumawa man lilibre, and sometimes i tickle him becos malakas kiliti nya. and one time he carried me right in front of my classmates

all my classmates were shocked and me also, because he suddenly carried me, then we went out of the room, then he told me,"tama na kase",and i was just laughing while he was staring at me. then someone called him cos he got a lot of things to do

right after that, i went inside. then my friends went to me asking me "wtf is that?", "kayo na? kelan pa", "maharot ka girl", "awit may jboi na sya"

i wasnt able to answer because i also dont know why he did that, everyone was looking at us.And here i am, left alone. and because of what happened, lumabas na ang mga ahas hahahaha kidding, but srsly, all who had a crush on him suddenly came out

we're still like that, nagtatampo na ako madalas sa kanya because of the things that are happening, but these time totoo na yung tampo, unlike dati, he can get me just by telling jokes o suyo, then we're okay

pero ngayon pati sarili ko kaaway ko na, i know that what i'm feeling is getting deeper, it's more than just a friend.

may event noon, at nagtatampo pa rin ako sa kanya, i was going to the main canteen when i saw him seated on a chair with some of our classmates, i dont have any choice but to walk in front of him, di naman siguro niya mapapansin cos he's talking to someone.

i was walking when someone suddenly held my arm, that made me go back, then i saw the hands that were on my arms and it was his hands, i immediately removed my arms away from him, kaya biglang nag "woah" yung mga nasa paligid namin at hinila ko na yung friend ko paalis doon.

di lang yan yung mga nangyare (dm me if u want to know pa hahalol), i was SO confused that time. it keeps me awake everynight and cried becos i don't really understand, maiiyak ka nalang kasi iisipin mo yung possibleng mangyare pag tinuloy ko lahat ng to

everytime i went home from school, bigla nalang ako iiyak kasi this is not how it is, this is not the way how my day ends before. i cant open anything to anyone, kasi di naman nila alam. im scared to be judged kahit friend ko pa yan

no one knows, its all in me. i failed a subject that sem, sobrang gulo. i keep on crying everynight i pray so hard na sana bukas ok na, sana pag gising ko bumalik na sa dati.

until a friend of mine asked me, ano na bang nangyayare sa akin, hindi ito ang nakilala nilang ako and i tell her everything. btw i dont blame anyone becos of my failure, i blame myself for that.

hanggang nagmessage na sa akin, kahit mga friends ko na boys, they keep on sending some memes. for me not to cry, they try not to open up the main reason why im wasted like this, coz they know na kaibigan nila ang isa sa rason.

months had passed, im still not completely okay, im still crying everynight, kasi hindi niya talaga ako pinapansin. dadaanan niya lang ako na parang hangin. may time na sobrang dami kong dala tapos wala akong katulong,

i tried to open the door pero di talaga kaya, and i didnt know that someone was behind me, and i know it's him. he opened the door, i thought papasok siya but he opened it for me.

walang ni isang salita ang lumabas sa bibig niya, kahit tingin man lang. after that, i went to the rest room so i'll be able to cry for what just happened

our year end party came, usually pag party uso yung mga games. so may news paper game and napapnsin ko na puro couples yung mga kinuha, in short tinawag kami ng adviser namin na kami yung mag partner. di ko pa rin siya kinakausap, so that the awkward feels wont get worse.

dm me if you want to see the pics and vids hehehehehez

we dont have classes na becos its sembreak. christmas came, i was waiting for him to greet me cos last year, he was the first one who greeted and he greeted me at exactly 1:00 AM, and i thought that it is the time to talk about things between us.

after our conversation, i'm here at the dining area, crying so hard. wow, what a good christmas.

im tired, crying every night. waking up remembering that night. i talked to some of my friends, bilang lang sila kasi di ko pa kaya.

hanggang sa naaawa na rin ako mismo sa sarili ko. i need to look forward, i need to loosen up. so i decided to cut my hair short

my love, thank you for being my source of happiness in my down times. thank you for singing with me kahit sinasapawan mo ako, thank you. sorry for being so annoying, sorry that i fell inlove to you.

you are the reason why i keep on smiling every single day. you make my bad days become good and the good days become better. loving you is a happy memory, being with you and everything about us is a happy memory.

to be with you, that is all i want, but you love someone else. kaya kahit anong gustuhin ko na dito ko lang sa tabi ko ay di pwede.

it hurts bigtime, but ano pang magagawa ko thats what u want. i will support you in anything, because i love you. u're my great love.

its really hard to forget everything but its for the good. this would be the last time that i'll talk about you, i know you have a bright future ahead of you. take care always. until we meet again, i love you bigtime, my future engr.

always,

chi

this thread is taking too long, i guess this would be the end. im sorry, im not a great story teller. dm me if you want some pics or questions. thank you

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