Thread by @mgakababalaghan, 0247 why do people stay?you answered 'love' is all you have, and [...]

0247 why do people stay?

you answered & #39;love& #39; is all you have, and i keep thinking: the same love you felt for your past? the same love that ended? the same love that you now find in me? the same love that can end and be found in another?

so why do people stay?

if you can feel this way to different people at different times, why are we here in the first place? should i really settle? if love can be found in another, another, and another, why do people stay?

is it for company? is it worth to go through the hurt and the visceral pain?

somehow, we arrived at a positive outlook: let& #39;s create more reasons to stay.

i wonder. i guess the reason im so uncertain is in these uncertain times like the pandemic, and me moving to Japan for 5 to 6 months, we havent created much. gohd. im so unsure.

im sure of my love, the feelings, and everything warm — but the relationship is a different story. with all that remains is love, a relationship cannot be guaranteed

one of our conversations before was that if she lets go, id let her. if she gets tired of me, id be fine with it. if shes asks me was i just waiting for her to let go, id say maybe. would it be a relief, maybe not immediately. but it will. things fall eventually fall into place

it bothers me that certainty is bound by time, by a person& #39;s choice. never should soemthing certain comfort you, althea.

june 4, 2020

ahhh. here it goes again. for some reason, i cannot untangle my partner with her ex and them as activists together. parang lagi& #39;t lagi akong aatras pagusaping ganito kasi para sakin nakaintertwine silang lahat together, hindi mapaghihiwalay

maling pag-iisip, pero hindi masisisi. sabay silang nagkamali, tinama ang mga mali, naging better together dito. i feel alone in this journey, but then again why do i have to have her with me?

i cant find comfort with you. i cant find peace in me. i wonder how long this dissatisfaction will last.

maybe i should change my outlook towards relationships first before actually being in one. like i always ask: whats the point of a relationship?

di naman kita kailangan. kaya para saan?

might be argued with: kailangan bang kailanganin ang isa& #39;t isa? to that i answer, if not necessary then why? love? but its not enough? so what now?

i wonder when will these thoughts be enough, or what constitutes "enough".

kunwari may ganito akong thoughts, like i want to break up, kailan yun magigong enough to break up

june 5, 2020

always more reasons to end than to stay

june 15, 2020

tangina ang unfair ko. my baby deserves to be loved certainly. anong ginagawa mo althea putangina

im just bitter kasi i cant fathom a four year relationship. im so scared things will change. which will. parang at the end of this i want to be the one not hurt

all this time ive been justifying it as if she was able to not choose, she can not choose again and again, magpalit na pangalan at mukha, kahit anong oras baka di na ko ang mapili

ay shet wala na naprove ko nanaman yung dati kong argument WAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

WAIT BALIK BALIK grabe everyone she loves treats her like shes disposable, or that she is loved less, and i know im one of them too

my baby doesnt deserve that. althea. ano ba. be better.

i mean ako rin for sure mamahalin ko siya forever (i dont see myself not loving her anymore), and she said na mahal niya pa ex niya (but not this way...????)

okay parang ganun na nga: kailangan ko malaman what its like to love another after loving this way

so alam ko sa sarili ko we& #39;ll break up kasi i have this need to know what its like to love again

im sure its stupid. im with my love right now yet all im thinking about is loving....another...again....hay, althea. stupid.

will this thread ever end

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