Day 24 - May 14
I stayed up until the sun was about to awake this morning. I couldn’t sleep at all, the insomnia was keeping me company throughout the night. “Take care”... words that echo in my head making everything seem so final. I am sick to my stomach and I feel

this emptiness there that I’m not sure how it gets filled again. The silver lining is this agony has made my creative juices start flowing and I finally began writing my children’s picture book! I am incredibly proud of it so far and I know you would be too.

I can’t help but think about you all the time that the only moments I get some quiet in my brain is when I’m writing my book. I welcome the much needed break from thoughts of you then because it helps bring my writing voice to the center and I can focus...

The inspection on my house is friday and I pick up my keys to the apartment, my new home, this sunday! I cannot stress how excited I am about this move, it has been too long being within the walls of this house that now reminds me of you everywhere. The couches where we

made love and I kicked ass at UNO, the living room turned dance floor on many drunken occasions listening to our favorite music loudly... As much as I loved every moment, the healthy thing is to leave it behind and step into a new home where I will make my own memories and

traditions, separate from you. You told me you would help me move in, install my TV and other pretty things but I see now that it’s best I don’t rely on you anymore; it’s just too painful. So with that my dearest, I will end this thread and say ever embarrassingly,

I love you madly. I miss you deeply. I hope you are well and I cross your mind sometimes...
Xoxo, Me.