we& #39;re all tired. so let me recharge without making it about how i don& #39;t wanna check on you. it would be robotic. don& #39;t make me perform my love. now is not the time to question if i care. i& #39;m still here aren& #39;t i? i don& #39;t need to be up your ass too. relax.
my family is doing a lot right now and it& #39;s really affecting me because i& #39;m expected to soothe everyone& #39;s fear while no one considers how their fear causes them to enact harm. the act of creating safe distance with people who worry at a time like this ... a unique test.
but ya know ... the worst time to drain yourself is during a pandemic so ima just suck it up and tell them to chill and go do anything to manage their stress without my input. i cannot be your emotional life raft today. i need a moment to just exist w/o you seeing me as a helper.
i don& #39;t treat myself as a one dimensional helper so the way i get you to understand that too is to show you that this won& #39;t be the only way i show up in your life. my role is not always helper. that limits me. it& #39;s a box. no thank you.
"i just worry about you"
yes, i know. and it& #39;s still not a reason to try to control me. both exist. you can feel that way *and* i don& #39;t have to tolerate the behavior that comes from you acting on those feelings. your worry doesn& #39;t trump my autonomy as my own person.
yes, i know. and it& #39;s still not a reason to try to control me. both exist. you can feel that way *and* i don& #39;t have to tolerate the behavior that comes from you acting on those feelings. your worry doesn& #39;t trump my autonomy as my own person.