I forget sometimes that I spent like a decade working myself to death. Now that I'm with my parents again and I'm on Twitter where everyone is like 17 and hasn't been beaten down by the working world totally yet, I keep comparing myself to standards I'll never meet.

I'm tired. And I spent a lot of time working at a life that was never within my reach.

I slept basically all day today and it was nice. That's all I do anymore, I'm just sleeping really.

I deserve rest, actually. I had all my dreams crushed. I spent a decade having constant panic attacks in food service to no avail. I transitioned only to lose my office job that was supposed to be my ticket out because of that.

Fuck everyone. I am not gonna do shit.

This is why I will not read your book or your podcast or play your game or listen to your music or whatever. Like I say I'm burnt out but I don't think people really grasp it. I literally can barely bring myself to get out of bed. I only shitpost so much cuz it's effortless.