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I& #39;m awash in a conflict of feelings, so I& #39;m going to be extremely vulnerable for a moment and share my thoughts.
I& #39;m *really* struggling with purpose right now. Part of it is how this pandemic has affected my life, but truthfully it is a topic I have fearfully avoided. (1/8)
I& #39;m *really* struggling with purpose right now. Part of it is how this pandemic has affected my life, but truthfully it is a topic I have fearfully avoided. (1/8)
The worst of this feeling is vanity. Doing art feels like wasteful self-indulgence.
The work I& #39;m doing isn& #39;t transformative, it isn& #39;t helpful. It doesn& #39;t elevate consciousness or awareness.
It doesn& #39;t protect anything, it doesn& #39;t *do* anything but get consumed and forgotten (2/8)
The work I& #39;m doing isn& #39;t transformative, it isn& #39;t helpful. It doesn& #39;t elevate consciousness or awareness.
It doesn& #39;t protect anything, it doesn& #39;t *do* anything but get consumed and forgotten (2/8)
I have tried sometimes for it to be those things, but I don& #39;t think that matters nor that I understand what that would even mean in context of creating it. Besides, ambition isn& #39;t an outcome! In my case it is a mask for shortcomings. (3/8)
I want to say that this isn& #39;t a critique of taste or an admonishment for liking art or entertainment. I& #39;m truly grateful to those who enjoy my work! I& #39;m truly grateful that I& #39;m able to do my work! And I don& #39;t think people need to value-judgment their interests. (4/8)
I just question why I think my perspective has any merit and what purpose it has, right now on earth.
I was told once that it seemed like I was searching for God through my art. Which always struck me as a particularly odd comment given that I paint weird triangles... (5/8)
I was told once that it seemed like I was searching for God through my art. Which always struck me as a particularly odd comment given that I paint weird triangles... (5/8)
But now, thinking on that - there was some truth to it. Maybe not God in the sense I assume they meant it - but my place in the way of things, if and where I fit in.
I outwardly talk about finding your voice and joy but it feels disingenuous if I don& #39;t value my own. (6/8)
I outwardly talk about finding your voice and joy but it feels disingenuous if I don& #39;t value my own. (6/8)
And the more I do art, the less doing it just because I like to holds weight. It feels aimless. I wonder if the realization I& #39;m having is that my life goals and art goals are incongruous. And if so, where does that leave me - whose whole identity has centered around art? (7/8)
That& #39;s all for now I guess. I& #39;ll try to end this positively and just say to take care of yourselves and don& #39;t forget the miracle that being able to create art really is. Goodnight!
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