Sometimes, I wish I can go back the very beginning, where things were simpler, way before things got out of hand. I feel like I've "cheated" while building my base, most of these were from desperation, venting, and over doing it. 1

I wanted to make myself feel good, but I did it wrong. I've been like this for a long time. I struggled to make friends at school. I made theses friends mostly by venting. I let venting and becoming desperately run my life. 2

And I regret it. I wish I came up with a better way to build my base, but now I can't go back. I have this guilt in me that will never go away. For now, I won't take Twitter seriously. I'm grateful for those who do support me and forgive me, including family. 3

Regardless if I gain or lose supporters, I'm grateful. I am blessed to have supportive people despite what I go through. This is a change that I've been wanting to working on for years, now it's here. 4

Don't let Twitter decide your self esteem or social life, think about the people who have cared about you way before Twitter. Just be yourself. Fin.