i don't assert myself like i need to because most people think conflict means dominating and winning rather than seeking understanding and it exhausts me. truly. because if the conflict just escalate with no solution, we wasted time.

escalates*

why initiate conflict w/ no intent to resolve? if you just wanna have your way then ok but leave me out of that. don't make it seem like i'm getting in your way just because you need to feel powerful in your autonomy. is this problem with me or am i just the right punching bag?

i have a voice but i don't want to only have to assert it because you don't know how to listen without always fighting to be heard. i hear you. i've been hearing you. shouting will actually make me shut down not listen. are you being present with me to even know that i'm here?

everyone around me yells their way into getting what they want. they use fear and emotional violence to bend others to their will and the second you refuse, you're getting in their way of dominating you. controlling you.

you're not cooperating or listening if you don't take their verbal lashings. you're" too sensitive". you don't like "truth". why is your truth so violent? why you gotta force your truth on people? why you so insecure in yourself that you see disagreement as violence?

you're right. i am sensitive. i can feel and because i am sensitive, i know how to walk away and not overstimulate myself or tolerate your violence to prove a point to you. you don't know how to get your needs met without force so meet them yourself. try that. i'm out.

i'm not conflict avoidant. you just wanna take your emotions out on me and i'm not letting you.