I miss patrons so bad y'all sometimes I still wanna cry about it and often I feel a lot of despair that my work now is, like, I dunno. So different. And then I watch these videos of this librarian I inspired to start a babytime at her library and now she's making these videos and

and I think, like, for a split second maybe all this was worth it you know maybe I actually, like, made one tiny bit of difference.

maybe like

not everything in my professional life is an endless void.

But I dunno, maybe it is!

(these tweets are both about the pandemic and what it's done to libraries and also about me switching to consulting from front line service. Because why feel bad about one thing when you can feel bad about EVERYthing.)

(I feel like it was right for me to switch to consulting and also like I betrayed everything I ever worked for. So. You know. That's. Fun. to feel now.)