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Whenever ppl talk about straight women dominating mlm fandom, i wonder who they're following and how many of them are just teens in the process of unlearning toxic ways of discussing queer relationships, and how many are queer/trans and havent figured it out yet
Im sure theres gross adult heteros being gross, but i cant name one in my fandom. But i can name gay men who've misgendered me and labled my exploration of my own trans masc journey thru fandom as fetishizing their relationships
And it took me uh *checks watch* roughly 18 years in fandom to Begin feeling comfortable putting myself in my ships, bc i had so much toxic crap about misogyny sexuality and gender to unpack.
I didnt make! My Mcceee Trans! Until SOMEONE ELSE said I should, that it would make them happy. It was like giving me Permission. I needed to be invited to make that jump, ok, it takes! Time! And courage and discussions!
And its certainly true for my experience that misogyny in media made projecting onto women Fucking Difficult. And that i cant easily draw the line between what was me exploring my masculinity and fearing my femininity. Just...SHITS COMPLICATED!
Cuz i want to project onto tomboys and the most femme girls. That women like Peridot were only there annoy the audience. That so many tomboy chars shit on other women, bullied their guy friends, and had their edges sanded off to complete their arc and earn a romance
Of course there are exceptions and i adored so many of them (kylie from extreme ghostbusters is perfect in every way)
But i still had to digest that shit and it poisoned how i expressed myself and what i created until riiiight about now. As sit a few months away from 30
But i still had to digest that shit and it poisoned how i expressed myself and what i created until riiiight about now. As sit a few months away from 30
I am only Now a trans masc demi boy something or other genderqueer expressing how much they love pink and elaborate bright clothes and want to use make up and wear heels bc it no longer feels like I'm wearing a costume and everyone with eyes is judging my choices
Bc im confident that im not a woman and that its genuine and true and OKAY that I never feel more masc than when I'm wearing girly things, that I don't need that validated by the outside world cuz it finally makes sense to me
LOOK FANDOM JUST ISNT WHO YOU WANNA READ PORN OF
LOOK FANDOM JUST ISNT WHO YOU WANNA READ PORN OF
