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How #TEWV implements Trauma Informed Care - a thread.
My traumas:
Age 20: suicide of father by gunshot in family home.
Age 21: breakdown/intrusive thoughts/depression/panic.
Age 22: death of mother to cancer.
Age 23: partner has affair and leaves with children.
My traumas:
Age 20: suicide of father by gunshot in family home.
Age 21: breakdown/intrusive thoughts/depression/panic.
Age 22: death of mother to cancer.
Age 23: partner has affair and leaves with children.
Age 23: unprovoked group assault. Significant facial/head injuries.
Age 23: stress of family court for access to children.
Age 23: discovery of debt left from partner.
Age 23: loss of job.
Age 23: breakdown and brief hospitalization.
Age 24: repossession of house due to debt.
Age 23: stress of family court for access to children.
Age 23: discovery of debt left from partner.
Age 23: loss of job.
Age 23: breakdown and brief hospitalization.
Age 24: repossession of house due to debt.
Age 28: ex partner moves children across the country without my knowledge after having an affair on her new partner with a stranger from the Internet.
Age 28: back to family court for access. Also involved social services due to my concern for children's welfare.
Age 28: back to family court for access. Also involved social services due to my concern for children's welfare.
Age 40: death of estranged brother to alcoholism in homeless hostel.
Age 40: breakdown following 3 years of workplace bullying by a narcissistic Manager.
This last one was different to all the other traumas in that it was more low-level and more long-term.
Age 40: breakdown following 3 years of workplace bullying by a narcissistic Manager.
This last one was different to all the other traumas in that it was more low-level and more long-term.
Following all the other traumas I'd bounced back, due to resilience and perserverance.
The workplace bullying/gaslighting affected me differently as it had the effect of making me question and blame 'me'.
Age 40: .. and so my #TEWV journey began.
The workplace bullying/gaslighting affected me differently as it had the effect of making me question and blame 'me'.
Age 40: .. and so my #TEWV journey began.
I was initially sent away from TEWV with - no other support, after being told I was "on the verge of being very unwell" by Fiona Parker (specialist psychoanalytic psychotherapist).
My family's concerns were ignored.
That resulted in a formal complaint being submitted to TEWV.
My family's concerns were ignored.
That resulted in a formal complaint being submitted to TEWV.
Interestingly, the analyst who had carried out a lengthy assessment prior to the session with Fiona had concluded that I was a good candidate for that type of therapy and that it could be life changing.
Following the formal complaint I met with Jane King (then Locality Manager) who acknowledged a number of failings; took away a number of actions; then failed to act on any of them and ignored my pleas for help.
Complaint to PHSO was submitted.
During this time I was given access to a very good therapist (as a result of the complaint) but she unfortunately went off sick during therapy.
I was subsequently given some 'holding' sessions with Barry Hudson (CMHT Manager).
During this time I was given access to a very good therapist (as a result of the complaint) but she unfortunately went off sick during therapy.
I was subsequently given some 'holding' sessions with Barry Hudson (CMHT Manager).
Age 42:
Me to Barry Hudson: "I need therapy to help me process the things I've been through"
Barry Hudson: "we don't do that anymore. We used to but we don't anymore"
Me (in tears): "I've been through a lot"
Barry Hudson: "hasn't everyone!"
I went home in distress and despair.
Me to Barry Hudson: "I need therapy to help me process the things I've been through"
Barry Hudson: "we don't do that anymore. We used to but we don't anymore"
Me (in tears): "I've been through a lot"
Barry Hudson: "hasn't everyone!"
I went home in distress and despair.
Despite the PHSO concluded that TEWV had failed to appropriately assess and meet my needs, Barry's view was still that they had failed to meet my expectations.
I did actually complete therapy when the therapist returned from sick leave.
Unfortunately, the experiences with Barry Hudson had undone the good work that had taken place in Therapy and had reignited the distress caused by Fiona Parker, Jane King, and the complaints processes.
Unfortunately, the experiences with Barry Hudson had undone the good work that had taken place in Therapy and had reignited the distress caused by Fiona Parker, Jane King, and the complaints processes.
Age 44: due to a change of medication and work stresses my MH again deteriorated.
I reluctantly agreed to a referral to TEWV primary care team.
I never heard anything back from them and my state continued to decline.
I reluctantly agreed to a referral to TEWV primary care team.
I never heard anything back from them and my state continued to decline.
Despite my concerns I then agreed to my GP referring me to the Access Team for a referral to the CMHT.
In the waiting room for my Access appointment, I had a brief interaction with Barry Hudson (Access and CMHT Manager).
In the waiting room for my Access appointment, I had a brief interaction with Barry Hudson (Access and CMHT Manager).
I expressed to Christine McQuillan (access clinician) that due to my previous experiences with him, I was concerned about Barry being involved in any decision making.
Christine assured me Barry would not influence her assessment and we had what I'd consider a helpful assessment.
Christine assured me Barry would not influence her assessment and we had what I'd consider a helpful assessment.
Despite Christine stating "definite clinical need" during the assessment I heard noting further.
My GP advised me some weeks later that the referral had been bounced - with 'no role for secondary services'.
My GP advised me some weeks later that the referral had been bounced - with 'no role for secondary services'.
My GP advised that I contact Christine to query the decision as no rationale had been provided.
I contacted Christine and she initially told me she thought I'd been re-referred back to the specialist psychotherapy service.
I contacted Christine and she initially told me she thought I'd been re-referred back to the specialist psychotherapy service.
She said she would speak with Barry to see what could be done.
When she called back with an update, she confirmed that the decision to bounce the referral had been made following a discussion with Barry Hudson.
When she called back with an update, she confirmed that the decision to bounce the referral had been made following a discussion with Barry Hudson.
The reports from TEWV and PHSO complaints included a number of quite startling inaccuracies.
I've since discovered that there are other inaccuracies in my clinical records.
Those inaccurate clinical notes - written to justify questionable decision making, influence future care.
I've since discovered that there are other inaccuracies in my clinical records.
Those inaccurate clinical notes - written to justify questionable decision making, influence future care.
The rest of my journey through TEWV services - and the impact on me and my family has been pretty much captured within my Twitter timeline over the past year.
During the past year I have tried to engage with Trust Directors and the Lead for Trauma informed Care, hoping to make sense of my journey and experiences; to improve services; and get closure.
I have asked for someone to 'walk' my SU journey with me; to help me make sense of it; and to help with identifying the errors that have occurred so that others may not have the same damaging experiences.
I have also repeatedly asked for an assessment for Complex Trauma, and for a longer-term trauma-focussed therapy to help me to process my experiences.
Out of all of the traumas listed above, it has been my experiences accessing and navigating services @TEWV; my experiences of their biased and deflective complaints process; the lies in my clinical notes; and the burden of blame being passed to me that have harmed me the most.
If #TEWV is 'leading the way' in Trauma informed Care then I can't begin to imagine how bad the other Trusts must be.
It really hurts that they engage in so much self adulation and promotion when I reflect back on my experiences of their 'care'
#TEWVLTV
#CPTSD
#HarmedByservices
It really hurts that they engage in so much self adulation and promotion when I reflect back on my experiences of their 'care'
#TEWVLTV
#CPTSD
#HarmedByservices
