My APRN leadership coach said to me last month, “It would be criminal for you to to withdraw from the NP program at this point.” She pushed me, I fought even harder, and finished the semester strong despite everything I am dealing with. PTSD exacerbation and all.
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...What is more ‘criminal’ to me now is what separates me from my class in finishing my final semester of coursework in dual NP program and the remaining clinical hours I need to graduate which were abruptly stopped by the pandemic...

3/ Was asked to provide medical/treatment documentation. Done. Getting this note took up 50% of my Psychiatrist appointment I needed for other things. This MD letter was completely disregarded & overruled by my professors, school policy &
Even the school ADA office.
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4/ Keep in mind, the University supposedly has all these Covid 19 resources for students in times of hardship. I couldn’t even get any empathy and understanding past the very NP professors who have known me and have been some of my biggest supporters for nearly 3 years.

5/ Before this PTSD exacerbation hit, I had As in my courses. I was on top of my game. I had a cluster of highly intense PTSD triggers hitting me within a very short amount of time. This includes very active movement in my Federal ERISA case in court on top of all of this...

6/...aftermath of the covid19 pandemic fallout & other petty decisions graduate faculty made to delay my graduation by an entire semester (December) over an oral comp video deadline. It was recently reviewed & I received a near perfect grade on this video & it isn’t summer yet!

7/ The pure irony of all this is I have a scholarly research paper that I wrote in 2018 that still hasn’t even been graded by the very professor who dropped this decision on me. This decision came on the very same day I was in the direct line of fire in the ER taking care of...

8/ ...what we highly suspected was my/the hospital’s very first young COVID19 patient who recently came in for other medical concerns initially. In the meantime, I had been trying to support & console others in that ER as covid “got real” & their reaction to this moment...

9/ I had to stop talking there and take a break. Started to get PTSD symptomatic. I will come back to this thread later when things calm down a bit. Today was rough and tomorrow will be too. Sigh