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I was 5 blowing out dandelions asking for a girlfriend prior to this I didn’t know what a gay relationship even looked like. My dad worked at a boys & girls club and damn near every other day somebody would ask if I was a boy or a girl but I don’t remember giving them an answer
I just kinda shrugged it off. Through elementary school I had boy crushes and w.e. nothin to major then I got my first girl crush and at the time I didn’t think that’s what it was I thought I was just really fond of her but booiiiiii her name is still my fb password
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Then I moved to NY. Summer of 6th grade I got my first bf me and my cousin used to go to his football games cause her brothers practiced on the same field and I didn’t even like dude he was sweet but I was just doin what my cousin was doin and he had a good taste in music
But when I found out I was leaving I was so heartbroken I played goodbye by Chris brown non stop but I was honestly so relieved bc of other shit that was going on but I was like crushed about jit then I moved back to FL and biittchhhh I had a whole new awakening
I’m not even gonna talk about the person but middle school was still kinda weird & I was really just trying to live my best life so I got a boyfriend my 7th grade year which was goodt ig but something still felt like it was missing and i couldn’t grasp what it was
But that was the same year I started hanging w/ the freaks and geeks and me and my friend were walking to class and we started talking bout some gay shit and I starting to become more open minded to it and there was this one girl who was my ex’s cousin
Who stayed on my case about being a ‘lesbian’ and she would kik me and be like “ik you’re a lesbian” like no sweets I’m not and calm down before you give yourself a damn stroke pls like why was she so worked up about me potentially being a lesbian the shit was mad weird
There was this girl I was crushing on tho but she didn’t know that and I didn’t identify as a lesbian. Any hoot in 9th grade I had a bf the nigga was tall and had a Mandingo but I didn’t care for it at all & then i realized he was playing me and I pulled a nigga move on him rq
I skipped class one day with this girl who would soon be my gf and me and ol boy had the same class that pd & he didn’t know I was at school so when I saw him he was talking to some girl but he didn’t see me. But me & ol girl was in the gym where he usually hung out during lunch
And we’re like hella close and this goofy nigga walks thru the door and is like “oh babe I didn’t even know you were at school today” and I’m like yea nigga I’m here and now I’m about to dog yo ass like you tried doggin me
So the next couple days me and this girl are chillin on some friend shit still skipping classes and he started picking up the pieces and finally got the courage to ask me if I liked girls and at this point I was just like yea “I’m bi” I didn’t have the time or energy to deny it
he asked if I would every cheat on him and lil ol me was like me, cheat on you, never and to be fair I didn’t but I did entertain the girl who was my girlfriend two months after we broke up and this nigga really tried to TALK to her like nah bby she minehttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😏" title="Smirking face" aria-label="Emoji: Smirking face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="😏" title="Smirking face" aria-label="Emoji: Smirking face">
And he was stuck lookin dumb and he avoided me for the rest of the school year. Me and this girl had a weird relationship it was my first girlfriend and I was insecure and going through a whole bunch of shit no one knew about but it was ok she was like my best friend at the time
I had just move to that school that year so it’s not like I knew many people and tbh I didn’t want to so we kicked it for some time we actually got into a relationship as a joke then we started hanging out every day and built a close bond even though there was shit going on bts
We were good still kicking it then some shit took place and it was hard for me to build that trust w/ her again I tried and tried but it just didn’t feel right and tbh I still have love for that girl she really is my soulmate but some people have different life plans
And truth be told we had the gf title but we were really just best friends we were together for about 9 months spent everyday together and never kissed like we would have intimate moments but bc of the shit going on w/ her plus my insecurities it was best that way
And I wouldn’t change it at all we both gained a lot from that experience and she knows she has a friend she can be real with bc that’s what we had before any of the other events took place when it was just me and her
Then we were doing our own thing for the longest 10th grade I got a gf fr fr and I just wanted to fuck tbh but it turned into something more we had a class together and the whole table used to cut up the whole period but she was always flirting w/ me and this and that and one day
She asked if she could stay the night and when I tell you I had NO INTENTION OF FUCKING THAT GIRL NOT ONE but things kinda took a turn but we were cuddled up watching death day and we were texting each other on snap and she was like “are you gonna kiss me or what?”
And in my head I was like “I hadn’t planned on it” but I’m trying to be a smooth operator like “you came over here so it’s up to you what you tryna do” like “whatcu talm bout shawty you GOTDAMN trippin” but the whole time my mom is like constantly busting in my room
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We really didn’t do much cause my mom refused to let me keep my door closed but we still made out and and I fingered her while both mine and my moms door was wide open and when she came on my fingers yooohttps://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤤" title="Drooling face" aria-label="Emoji: Drooling face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤤" title="Drooling face" aria-label="Emoji: Drooling face">https://abs.twimg.com/emoji/v2/... draggable="false" alt="🤤" title="Drooling face" aria-label="Emoji: Drooling face"> I had a gf for nine months and I had every chance to do that shit
I was so pissed thinkin about all the pussy I could’ve been getting my ex was at my house everyday for 6 months and this is what I could’ve been doing like god I want a redo and I’m not gonna be a lil bitch this time I promise not after what I just experienced I’ll be damned
But yea so me and the girl dated for like 3 weeks maybe and she was fucking with somebody else but I wasn’t stressing it & I didn’t have the heart to tell her I didn’t wanna be with her so I just started to become distant and she kinda go the hint
The fact that I’m cool with all my ex’s despite how our relationship ended is kinda weird to me like there isn’t one ex I can’t text rn and have a conversation with like I don’t want to but I could
Anyways the last story I told about the toxic girl kinda goes with this thread so I’ll talk about it briefly even though no one cares. I’m just so bored.
