Neurodivergent in uni feels like living underwater with 10,000 other people but you don’t have gills. Everyone else does, and assumes you do also, so you struggle and barely get by and you blame yourself and get SO angry you can’t function and it’s all bc you don’t have gills

Im some cases (i.e. mine) when you don’t know you have what’s considered a disability, you have NO IDEA that you literally don’t have gills. You’re out here with LUNGS and got no fucking idea. Spending days crying, weeping, bc you cant breath underwater like your friends can.

And if you knew “hey, it’s bc you have lungs and you’re just not built like that, it’s okay” it wouldn’t be so bad. But because you DONT know, you convince yourself you’re just not TRYING to breathe underwater enough, so you push yourself, and of course, you almost drown

And I personally tend to feel hyper visible, you know? Like everyone can see me struggling to swim, completely unaware I have lungs. So they’re like “what’s up with her??” Snickering, judging. It could be 100% in my head and not so, but it definitely feels like that

Im just feeling really really alone tonight and i only have one week left of uni but after (unintentionally) releasing in the form of this thread i feel a little more powerful. You have LUNGS bitch but it’s OKAY bc you’re graduating on TIME just like them gilled hoes!!!!

Time to finish this thang, time to grow a pair and be brave enough to manifest what I want, time to wrap it up, bitch!!!!