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Oikawa is literally such a complex character, everything about him makes so much sense, from his personality to the way he plays, the only reason why he is the way he is now is because equated his worth as a person to how good of a player he is, that& #39;s why he is willing to +
go the extra mile for volleyball, and yes, it has something to do with his passion as well, but when you put your worth on something in the way Oikawa does with volleyball it becomes a dangerous things, suddenly getting injure is worth it as long as you can improve, +
and then, the thing that you love the most is also what makes you so unhappy, and how does this relates to his personality and the way he plays? Regarding his personality is because when talking about himself, those times he really was sincere instead of playing around +
he never actually admitted to be in the same battle field as anyone, because he always considered himself to be behind, because for a long time, he never thought that he could catch up to people like Kageyama, he always saw himself rather small, and when it comes to the way he +
has a style where he relies on others more than himself, hence why we constantly says "I believe in all of you" before every game, because just what it suits his personality the most, because for someone like him, who doesn& #39;t trusts his skills, is better to know +
that there are other people on the court he can trust, that there are people out there in that has his back, that not everything relies on him, and to know something like that when you don& #39;t see yourself with enough confidence it& #39;s important, in a way, it can make you feel +
at peace, it probably allows him to show some confidence when he is playing, to do dangerous things like that serving that ended up failing multiple times or using Kyōtani during that last match with Karasuno, because he now knows that not everything relies on his abilities, +
something he doesn& #39;t trust, WHICH ALSO EXPLAINS WHY WAS HE SO SURPRISED WHEN HIS TEAM TOLD HIM THAT THEY BELIEVED IN HIM AS WELL, because for someone like him, who is rather insecure of his abilities, who sometimes see himself like someone who isn& #39;t a good enough of a player +
it can be a surprising to know that you can be reliable guy as well, not only that, but it& #39;s also meaningful to know that for some, you are good enough of a player, especially when it comes to the people he trusts the more, in simple terms, Oikawa trusts the other players to +
compensate on the fact that he doesn& #39;t trust himself enough, so when the team shows him that he is trusted it becomes a rather meaningful and surprising thing, because he never saw himself on that light, AND IF ON TOP OF THAT WE ADD THE QUOTES "Talent is something +
you make bloom, instinct is something you polish" and “Today might be the chance to grasp the chance to let your talent bloom. Maybe tomorrow, the day after, or next year... Maybe even when you& #39;re thirty. I& #39;m not sure if physique has anything to do with it, but if you think +
that it will never come, it probably never will.” HIS CHARACTER BECOMES EVEN SO MUCH BETTER, because he, someone who always thought that despite how much his tried (to the point where he was destroying himself), is now admitting that he can grow, that his hard work +
will pay off, unlike before, where he was so frustrated at his lack of growth to the point where he almost punched Kageyama, he is showing GROWTH (and Furudate builds this growth in such a beautiful way that makes sense), and even on his most recent appearance, +
when he says that he forgot that volleyball was supposed to be fun, for someone like him to say this phrase it makes so much sense, because it REFLECTS ON EVERYTHING THAT HE HAS STRUGGLED BEFORE, the way in which Oikawa& #39;s conflict is written is so beautifully done +
and I can write even more about the complexity and layers behind this kind of conflict, because what his character discusses is a rather hard thing to address, because it has to do with self-worth and being conscious about your abilities while also thinking that +
there are always going to be someone better than you, and when you want to be the best at the thing that you love the most, how can you deal with this piece of information? How can you reach a satisfying solution? For Oikawa it was to convince himself that he was still +
growing, but then again, I can see that his somehow he might still struggle with this problem given his quote about volleyball and he forgetting that is a fun thing to do, and yet, the way his problem reaches a solution for his conflict is still such a satisfying ending, and +
I honestly can keep going, but I really want to make a proper thread about this with pictures from the chapters, addressing his struggle in chronological order, with less typos and more thought put into the discussion of his conflict, so for now this is everything I will say,,,
Bonus: IF ANYONE DARES TO SAY THAT OIKAWA IS JUST A PRETTY BOY AGAIN I WILL COME FOR THEIR ASSES BECAUSE I DID NOT MAKE THIS THREAD ABOUT HIM AND FURUDATE DID NOT GIVE OIKAWA SUCH A COMPLEX CONFLICT JUST FOR HIM TO HE DISRESPECTED LIKE THIS, GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE
