It really sucks wanting to be able to fix a problem so badly and be a light and a love for someone but not being an option is just like...it blows. I just want to scream “I’m right here” even though I know it doesn’t matter and it’s never gonna be me anyway so why do I even worry

I don’t know. I feel so dumb and naive sometimes and out of my element and not worthy of attention or affection. I look at myself sometimes and feel confident but then also feel like “look at you you don’t deserve anyone. No one gives a shit about you. You’ll be alone forever.”

This is part of why I never felt like part of the lgbt community. I’m not ripped enough or I’m not femme enough or I’m just too into the shit I’m into or I’m too introverted. I’m too ME and it makes me sad sometimes. I don’t know what version of me I’m supposed to be to be seen.

This thread brought to you by loneliness and an encroaching birthday that’s making me feel extra worthless, stagnant, and judged (by myself). It’s that feeling of never being good enough for anyone inc myself. It’s dumb and lame and sharing it with the world is probably idiotic.

Well my @TacoBell showed up so I can eat my feelings instead of spewing them all over twitter. Love yourselves and each other. Bad feelings pass. Sadness goes away. Play games watch movies listen to records. just breathe. be okay. I love you. Especially you.